I haven’t been active. I have been shit blogger, but I have been busy with uni, I have shit loads of deadlines in December, so I will be inactive even more but I just wanted to tell you guys what has been going on.
My radio show at uni is now on air, finally. This year I feel like it’s a lot more professional, we have spent a long time planning what we want and we know how to get there so thats great.
I have cut all my hair off and donated it to the little princess trust. I have wanted to do this for a long time, and I have finally done it.
I am going to try and do my blog in the Christmas break, but I am going to be honest I am losing motivation to do this blog, even the youtube thing, I just can’t be arsed.
And I also feel like there is such a huge blogging community that I don’t feel apart of, so I just don’t want to try and push myself into a circle that doesn’t want me. Also, I doubt that people actually read my posts, so that is discouraging me even more, the thought that I am wasting my time, and energy into a blog, that nobody reads or even cares that exists, is really upsetting.
But I want to do this so I will carry on, but it is just natural for me to quit things when I can’t be bothered. I am a quitter, theres not many things that I have kept doing, and sometimes when I stop things I look for an excuse, but it’s just me being bored and lazy and not finishing it.
I want to be honest with whoever reads these posts and whoever watches my YouTube videos, I am and have never been in the right mindset. But hopefully this will change soon, maybe new year new me might actually happen. But for now, I am going to take a step back, I don’t want to create shitty content to keep my blog regular, I want to write something that I have spent time writing, and checking, but with uni that is really difficult since I have loads of work to do and I am not confident that I am a great blogger or ‘youtuber’.
Whoever reads these posts, thank you and I hope you will be patient with me.